Saturday, March 10, 2012

Breaking Up is Hard To Do

So I just got dumped. But I'm not heartbroken. And I'm not angry. Well, maybe a little angry but that's directed at myself.

It took me a long time to start thinking about a future with someone new and as soon as I begin to trust it..... Blammo! No more future.

So I'll admit that I cried a little. Mostly cause I feel stupid for trusting in something that definitely had the odds against it lasting. And a bit for the might have beens. But I'm not crying for that what it actually was.

And I have already come to terms with a few things about myself because of it. The first is that I'm not cut out for a booty call situation. Screw that. You can take all of me or you don't get any. The second is that if it's not meant to be don't push it, just move on.

I've always known it's a bad idea just to stick because it's comfortable. But I definitely needing reminding.

I really don't hate him. Or even dislike him. He's a good guy with a good heart who just didn't see a future with me. He was straightforward and honest and I really truly believed him when he said he didn't want to hurt me.

It's also, at least for a long while, the end of a friendship. And that always sucks. I'll miss him. And I'll miss his family too. We had good times.

And so begins the single life again. Time to go out and have fun and experience new things. Maybe along the way, I'll meet someone new. Maybe not. I'm happy enough to just be me.

1 comment:

  1. Aww. :/ A bummer indeed, I'm sorry to hear it. apparently the dating threw some long-term things into sharper relief. It sucks in some ways, but it's... knowledge, too. *snug*